Wow, another year has come and gone. It’s hard to believe what kind of shape I was in a year ago. I was working 2 and sometimes 3 jobs just to get by and it was a constant struggle. It still is, but now I have one really good job, and now I’m back in school, almost another semester down amazingly. The last year has really been kind of a blur, particularly the last 4 months. I never would have thought I would be able to work a full time job, and take care of my kids alone and go to school. I don’t even know what possessed me to enroll in classes, but now I’m glad that I did.
Along with everything else, Cooper had a lot of trouble in 2 different daycares and that was a constant source of stress. And I do mean constant. I’m so glad that he now has a great place to go and I never have to worry about him. Carter is loving his daycare too, and looking forward to Kindergarten in August. They have both grown so much and are such happy kids. Everything I do is for those 2… whenever I don’t want to wake up in the morning, and drag myself through another 12 hour work/school day, I think about them and what kind of example I’m setting. That is what keeps me going.
The quote, “It’s always darkest before the dawn” comes to mind. There were times when I just wanted to quit my job and pack up and leave. I don’t know where I’d go, but I didn’t want to work so hard anymore. I’m glad that I always kept going and that’s what I’ll continue to do. Things are looking up, thanks to a lot of patience and good people in my life, and I’m looking forward to my 27th year on this planet.
And one of my favorite quotes:
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. –Jeremiah 29:11
